My dearest friends and followers on this Blog, I do know it has been a while since I last posted, but circumstance were such, that Blogging had been the furthest from my thoughts. My heart and Thoughts were, and still is with my Late Mummy:'(. She had passed away a few days after my last blog post, as I begin to attempt healing myself, please allow me to dedicate this post to my Mummy?. Do forgive any of my spelling/grammatical errors, as I type this out with Tears already welling up in my eyes?.
A Letter to my Mother
To My Dearest Mummy.
Just as Allah/God calls back the sun at the end of the day, magnificiently colouring the sky and World with it’s final warmth of outstreched rays, So did YOU, dear Mummy, leave Us to return to Your Creator.
After more than 20 years of graciously fighting your illness, Allah saw you getting tired and called you back to Him. You have filled our lives, and all those that have come to know you, with so much Love, Care and Laughter, gently adding colour to our days and years.
As you grew old, and sickness over took your body, you still had such a positive energy about you, your smile is forever etched in my memory. As years went by and being dependent upon medication to help ease your illness, Your Simple, Down-To-Earth demeanor, forever in Worship of your Creator, never complaining about your situation, prove What a Brave Soldier/Woman You were in all our eyes, and I pray Allah saw it that way too.
The Last time I met you Mummy, the very last words You said to me (as I was bidding you farewell to start a new chapter in my life thousand of miles away, in another country) were…
“Go safe my Child, just Don’t forget ME”, and gave me one of your tight hugs, amidst your shaky hands, and a kiss. I cried like a baby, seemed like I was leaving Home all over again, like I did 15 years ago when I married, BUT little did I know that this was Your Final Farewell to ME. Ooooh how I MISS YOU DEAREST MUMMY, how I long to hear your voice in the other end of the Telephone calls, I so looked forward to. In Life I loved You oh so Dearly, In Death I LOVE YOU still.
It Broke my Heart to Lose YOU, but you didn’t go Alone, a part of ME and the rest of our Family,went along with YOU, the Day Allah Called You Back To Him.???
I Can’t Thank Allah enough, for the Mummy He gave me, you may not have been Perfect in the Eyes of the World, But YOU were perfect for ME. I Thank You oh dear Mummy, for being my 1st teacher, for teaching me everything I know today, for instilling integrity and bringing me up on the straight path, for teaching me about sharing and humanity, for being my courage when courage is what I lacked, for being there just to listen without being Judgemental and for travelling along with Me, even though it were through my Pictures. You were the rose( YOUR FAV ), in all our lives, spreading your sweet fragrance as Lifes’ Waves ebbed on and On and On!!!
You will forever be loved and missed, a beautiful soul such as yours is what is needed more off in this World. I LOVE YOU MUMMY??
Ya Rabb, THANK YOU for giving me Just the kind of Mother You knew I needed! And as she returns back to YOU, Oh Allah, please Grant my Mummy, Rashida Essa, ease from the Punishment of the Qabr(grave), Fill her Qabr with Noor(light) and Grant her the best and Highest stages in Jannah AMEEN!!!! Grant me and the rest of my family, especially my Abba(dad) the strength to overcome this trying phase in our life, ameen.